New Year.

It's the New Year.

I wanted to start off with a clean slate and a good attitude.

That didn't happen.

Things from last year are haunting me and my attitude is shit.

I just feel like I'm falling. I'm falling into this black hole, but I'm not hitting bottom. I just keep falling. It never stops. And I'm afraid for the bottom to come. Because that means it's all over. And the last time that happened I ended up with 30 pills in my stomach.

I just want things to change. But I don't know how to change them.

And I'm running out of time. And I'm running out of hope. And I'm running out of heart.